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Friday, June 15, 2007

Deadlines...Dealines...and MORE DEADLINES...

I'm disorganised, confuse and simply nt in the right state of mind.

Its nt tt complicating n hard to handle. But i seem to be losing my temper....wonder y?

existencia@12:39 AM
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Monday, June 11, 2007

Reading through my previous entires n realised tt all of them seem so negative. Decided to blog something happy and positive. Anyway planning to change a happier and colourful blog. The current blogskin seems to be too heavy.

Went shopping with princess yi today. Alighted at the wrong bus stop and had to walk a longer way to IKEA. Lunch at IKEA was superb. The apple pie was sweet, the potato salad was heavenly and the chicken wings were heaven. Haha...ate till i was bloated.

Bought tons of things today, seems to be in the shopping mood. These are the items of today :

1. FBT shorts. Haha..princess yi had to settle for the blue one as the black one ran out of sizes. Haha..i had to do the exchange for her lor.

2. Bikini. Haha..had to hide it in my bag in case my mum finds out. Can't imagine if she sees it.

3. Sunglasses :) Haha..bought it at only 15 bucks. Spent an hour there and tried tons of it. My cheekbones are too high and my nose bridge was too low. Conclusion is i can only wear those spectacles type sunglasses. Haiz.. The poor sales gal had to entertain us for an hour. I loved my sunglasses :)

4. Decided to abandon the thought of buying an expensive sports shoe. All thanks to princess yi. Bought a North Star canvas shoe instead. It cost barely 20 bucks and i decided to decorate it with colourful shoe laces. Haha..saved lots of money :)

5. Actually i wanted to get a bag at Toa Payoh. It was a white one n i dun own a white bag. But it cost 20 bucks and judging frm the quality its nt really worth the price. Being the aunty side of me i'm only willing to fork out 15 bucks.

6. Rojak and Bread. The rojak was superb as it has cuttle fish in it !!!! The hot dog bread was superb. Haha..i ate the sausage together with the bread. I'm very guai de unlike someone. My mum loved the coconut bread and said tt she's buying for my grandma.

Had a fun and happy day todae. Thanks for running ard with me :) Thats all folks !

existencia@9:32 PM
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Sunday, June 10, 2007

Overwhelming feeling of emptiness.

Didn't know why....

No words seem to be suitable to describe my life now...

Didn't know y but i seems to be standing outside of a glass globe and watching myself from outside.

Didn't know why i'm nt in the mood to do anything....

Didn't know why all these are happening...

No happiness, no sadness, its just nothin.

existencia@11:06 PM
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Friday, June 01, 2007

I woke up and my mum will ask me abt the uni thingy. I come back from work and the same qn again. The cycle goes on and on. Todae i finally submitted to the nagginess and pressure and made the ultimate decision. I accepted NTU. Hopefully that it was a wise decision though. I do feel a lot lighter but there is still a tinge of uneasiness. I feel like throwing up- its either due to the nervousness or i ate too much chocolate fudge today.

Recently the topics in my house are :
1. which uni are u gg? U sure u dun want SMU?? Har...NTU? Are you certain??
2. When u want to buy lappy?
3. When are u quiting Gio? U better quit these few days..latest by mid june.

These are all the parents' voices swimming in my head. I know they are concern abt my future but sometimes its just add on to my pressure. At times i really dun feel like studying anymore. But i know its just a reckless idea. Time to throw it into the rubbish bin.

Anyway i solved point 1. I think the rest of the problems will be solved soon. I guess i better start registering and asking abt the hostel. Growing up is realli never easy.

Though i've been rather cold towards my parents during this period, but i still love them as much as before.

existencia@12:33 AM
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